i wan to ran away!

yeah.. i wan to run away.. i wan quit everything and stay alone!!
everything seems like going against me..
nothing can really make me feel comfortable or happy wit..
exam exam.. i dun wan!!! i dun wan to sit for the tests to test me.. i dun wan to expose my standard which is way lower..
i hate exam.. i hate worrying on where to go and wad to study..
i hate aiming and planning.. where i can even reach it..
i hate planning.. which planned shud be very fine but ends up worrying again..
i dun wan think where will i heading to..
i hate thinking now..
i wan to set my mind blank..
dig away my brain..
throw away everything..
sit down and enjoy by myself..
i am looking for nothing now.. only the coming family gathering during mooncake festival..
i dun wan go school and face my result.. i DUN WAN!!!
i hate seeing myself drop from my standard..
*BANGED*

^^

holiday start today up to next sunday!!
finally can take a rest..
and have to study study..

after 1 day of relaxing, sleeping, facebooking and etc..
i still feel sad abt the exam.. aiks..
i have to force myself to bring the PA textbook go home.. which initially i wan left in the school..
have to remind myself to study!!
juz dun wan her to have change to scold me or even embarrass me anymore in the class..

study hard la!!!

i AM back~~

hello ppl!!
i been missing from blogger since the last 2 months..
i guess no1 miss me ba.. lolz
so NOW i am back..
sorry tzt i cant update for the last 2 months..
mainly 2 reasons la..
exam exam exam exam as the first wan
and LAZY the second wan..

erm.. lets talk abt my past 2 months life la..
go school as usual..
eat as usual..
sleep as usual oso la..

has been exam for past 3 weeks..
talking abt exam.. did very badly..
as my PA teacher said: jangan tanya menghua la.. dia pun tak buat dengan baik.
lalalalalalalalala..
seriously telling.. i dun expect i can score in PA..
coz i really cant memories kenegaraan and dasar..
i only wan to pass..
thx teacher for embarrassing me..
if i say i am ok wit it then will be impossible..
i wan to score too.. i worked hard ady..
wadever la.. YES i am SAD now.. superb..

okay stop complaining abt exam la..

i went mountain climbing during last holiday..
fun, fun and fun..
although i banged my car.. lol
pics lazy to upload.. its at my facebook la..

then sam bday went chili's for lunch..

and ETC..
but forget ady.. hehe..
will update more frequent but i dun think so..
have to go hibernation for studying..

Meet wit the ASQ finalists

Date: 18 July, 2009 (Saturday)
Venue: Palace of the Golden Horses, Mines Resort City
Time: 10.30 till 13.00
Gang: only me and khew..

feel so lucky coz i am chosen to attend tis..
1st time in my life.. lolz..
a little of mafan thingy when i am registering..
erm.. juz maybe the miss out my name ba..
but it is settled..
if they never give me tat 2 tickets.. i fight with them using my mouth only la.. keke..

listen to the songs sang by the 5 finalists..
the event is juz like the normal la..
nth to blog oso..
after tat autograph session lor.. take signature and capture pics..

feel so stupid when some1 ask to survey me..
blek.. i will never wan to be on the TV!~! luckily is not on TV..
but juz dunnoe y they muz take video thru out the survey session.. haiz..
nvm.. since they promise not going to put on TV so i juz did it..
another stupid wan.. they ask to say some words for the programme " u r on air"
arh.. juz dun feel like doing.. coz definetely put on TV.. so run away..
haha...

ok.. now some of the photo..

khew and ryan

ryan and yoke

min and me

alvin and khew

a cute little boy taking pics of jojo.. cute ler..

jojo and khew

jojo and me

the finalists: ryan, yoke, kahfai, min and alvin

last but not least.. the favourite finalist of me.. and the perfoamnce of her on the day..
Min.. Gambate

Academic Day

4 more months to Real STPM and 1 month plus to STPM trial
still then.. my time is used for facebooking-ing and blogging here..
keke.. wads wrong?? i am clever ma.. honestly and i admit tat.. i am so proud for my result tis time..
as wad i told my friends: yala.. i very happy and proud now!!
however my CGPA is not 4.00 and it is not even more than 3.01
so is not really tat good la.. but i improved!!

the indian teacher(i dun wan to mention name) said all kind of negative things to my mum when we are taking the result..
she says to my mum: meng hua is talkative in class la.. must concentrate more in class..
she says to me: u muz always listen to senior like us.. we can give u ways to score in exam!!
Bull SH*T!!!
no doubt i dun like tis teacher at ALL..
however, my class teacher help me alot..
she says to my mum: talkative is good.. i have many students who are talkative very excell in life
and i think meng hua is very good.. i know him since form 1 so i know how good is him.. he did very well in science..

haha.. thx teacher!! u like mock the indian teacher kau kau in front of me.. haha..
and of coz la.. the indian teacher got nth to say anymore..
wad she can say?? i score the highest mark for her teaching subject!! not maths!!! another wan..

back to home..
i talk to my mum..
and my mum oso disagree wit tat indian teacher!! yeah!!!
haha.. Pn. **** so sorry tat your negative fedback to my mum is useless!!! hahaha

i aM so PaiN noW

Juniors & seniors!!!
thx for all the troubles u bring to me now..
u will never know tat simply complain some1 else will put another person in trouble
every time when i was called by any teachers to ask abt orientation
u will not know wad is the feeling?
and when teachers ask abt the complains and i am blurring and worrying..
is there tat many complains?
or u guys juz like to complain small stuff as a big trouble to the skol?
i hate been called by any teacher to ask abt the orientation anymore..
i hate when i know there are ppl complaining abt tis... i hate all tat include the juniors!!! sry to say tat..
u all will not how much effort and energy i had put in to fight for the best to give u all..
u all will think tis is agree by everyone without any discussion..
u all will never know wad is happening in the board..
and i can tell u all loudly!!! i did my part to concern abt u all.. and i can say proudly i make tis orientation juz an easy task for u all..
so NOW!!! i dunnoe wad else i can do.. once AGM is over.. i will not care abt the form 6 society and any of the form sixers anymore..

wad's wrong?!

how come there are still complains here and there?!
sigh!! i ady fed up..
i think and think and think..
for all the benefits is for u juniors only..
i guess 70% of u dun need to pay fines or do punishment..
the remaining 30% i did give u all another 1 week to reduce the fines and DC..
hell!!! and u are still complaining..
God.. tell me who!!! i felt so angry..
i fight everything for them..
i dun think if some1 else is the president now.. they wont do tis.. and things wont go better..
so APPRECIATE it..
seniors i think u know i am very good for them..
and last year.. we are even worse than tis few hundred times..
arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh